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My best-friend.Little by little...
our friendship dwindled.
I saw it die,
saw myself say good-bye.
I said it first,
'cause I knew you'd forgotten to remember that I still was (existent).
It hurt a lot,
though not as much as I thought it would have.
I'd steeled myself against it,
and didn't fall when I sensed it.
(Doesn't mean it was easy. What do you know, anyway?)
Your betrayal was hard to take,
for our friendship wasn't meant to break.
But what's to be done, is to be done...
that's all I've got to say now.
It's over, amigo.
P.S.: Thanks. It was nice knowing you. Goodbye.
Tomorrow is Today...So here I was, and here I am...
Yesterday's gone... Tomorrow has arrived...
The tomorrow that I dreaded so much... That tomorrow has arrived...
The year is new... And so are these feelings...
These feelings of sorrow... For what this new Tomorrow... This today has brought...
For everything that I've lost... For all that I once was...
A lot many things I miss... A lot many people too...
Tears don't come easily... because tears cannot express what I feel...
This year's a first...
This year brings agony...
I'm starting it without your wishes...
I'm starting it without giving you a tight hug and a huge smile...
I'm starting it without you patting my back... and asking me to be happy all the while...
A sixteen year old tradition... today has been broken...
This is what tomorrow has brought for me...
A tomorrow i could fore-see... a dreaded destiny...
Tomorrow has come...
Tomorrow is today...
So here I was... and here I am...
Beauty regained...Darkness everywhere...
a sign of evil, I swear.
So many empty streets,
to my heart, they all speak.
Smile forms in the core of my being...
As I look at the flowing stream...
It's a life loved...
It's a life lived....
A slight kiss of the soft wind...
Smooth against my cheek...
Turning again the skin to golden...
beauty regained... beauty that was stolen...
The beauty of the breeze...
bringing a tinkle in my eyes...
color to my cheek...
The dust is gone...
the view is now clear...
No fog... I see now... and I hear...
The beauty that was lost...
has been brought to life again...
Hold that tear...
It's the purest... like the rain...
A dew drop fallen... A pink petal...
A possession honored... valued... secured...
HeartlessDon't cry on my shoulder,
I won't be touched.
(On the contrary, my dear friend,
it sounds quite revolting.)
Don't try to be nice to me,
I won't give you a smile.
(Heard my sarcasm?
Why, I think it's enough to even snatch away your smile.)
Don't be there for me,
I don't need it, I'm quite strong.
(Yet, I've always been there for you.
Maybe I'm doing this all wrong.)
I know how depressed you are,
I know you want me to help.
Yet I see what a big farce it is,
sorry, but we don't gel.
You think I'm heartless,
well guess what, I really am.
Your views don't matter a bit, buddy.
It's all a big sham.
Smile, said he....Down and out... saddened was I...
Distant and removed... I seemed to have died...
Just him I needed... Him and no one else...
Did he not see it...? But then... he said...
Don't always be so down... Come on, you have to smile...!
Shocked... Taken-aback was i...
Did he not see... he is my smile...
Maybe he didn't know... But I was dying inside...
To smile... I needed him by my side...
And when he wasn't there... I guess I forgot to smile...
But his bidding I must do... So a promise I gave...
Smile I always shall...
(Even if it leads me to my grave...)
Simple LoveD-rr-mm... La-la...
That's what's going on in my mind!
I've stopped making sense,
li'l more crazy each time.
A wail of joyful glee... a moan of sadness flees...
How do I keep it all inside, with a smile plastered to fool your eyes?
I'm laughing all the way...
Seems you're laughing too,
but hell, can see it's not really true.
We've been so happy,
and now I'm tensed again...
Well, atleast I still got you,
an answer to all my prayers.
I'm simply begging now...
Just see it in me,
the need to be yours...
I've given you my all,
though I'm not perfect at all...
Just love me for me...
And make my life your own...
Want our love to always be that strong...
I. Simply. Love. You.
Memories...I'm going down under,
and I dunno what to do.
No, it's not your fault,
I'm not blaming you.
I'm trying to cheer up,
But there's someone that I miss.
It's already two months since he's gone,
but will I ever survive this?
I know, sweetheart, you've been here all the time,
ever since he died...
But I see him each night in my dreams,
how do I ever say goodbye?
Each night he's there, and he's smiling and laughing,
but then... Poof...! He's gone...!
It's so hard to wake up,
sometimes I wish I wouldn't have to all.
I try keeping it inside,
but I've seen it doesn't work.
I'm trying to block my emotions, oh yes...
but was that all he was worth?
It makes me sad, it makes me mad...
that I'll never see him again...
He was my best-est-est-est friend,
and now he's gone to the other end.
I know you'll hold me through my tears,
but will these tears stop?
I hope these dreams would simply go away...
and not break my resolve.
The resolve which is... to let him go...
to simply set him free.
Maybe I'm just
In your arms....In your arms... I see the happiness... which was fading away...
Through your eyes... I see the World... which was so dark yesterday...
With you I see the sunrise... The day... so happy and gay...
By your side... I stand... gaping at the noon...
The wind blowing around... a celebration that's ever so true...
And when you hold me high up in the air... I swear the sky will soon...
Be within our reach... oh yes, even the moon...!
The moon... oh so beautiful... and yes, so are you...
Oh, when you look at me that way... you really make me drool...!
Smile... laugh... giggle... a lot of that we do...
In your arms... I always wanna be... hold me always there...
And when it's time for me to go... That's where I wanna be laid...
No, not a grave... It won't do... 'cause in your arms I wanna die...
That's where I find my peace... And that's where I wanna be... when it's time for my Final Goodbye...
I was, 'cause you were.Every little memory comes back to me,
every bit of my life, that was you and me.
Every small joke that we ever shared,
in that tiny li'l World for which we cared.
Every single joy my eyes beheld,
a beautiful butterfly, a beautiful friend.
And it was always between you and me,
it was always our little secret, just the way it should be.
Where you told me what you knew,
and where I learned how you grew.
How times were so different,
we were separate generations.
But then, we were still the same.
You told what you saw,
but I told you how I saw.
You told me how it was,
and I told you what that was.
And you told me about your sorrows,
and told me your dreams for my tomorrow.
You told me it had been,
a life adventurous and unseen.
And I told you about my joys,
my fears and all those tears.
And I miss all that.
I miss that place that was only ours.
Where no-one could come, no-one could trespass.
And how can I explain how horribly this pains?
This separation that cost me a part of my life.
MemoriesMemories return to the heart when provoked,
Like a punch in the ribs.
They ache you, leave you writhing in longing,
This lust for memories that are so far away.
They fill your eyes with hot tears
That scald your cheeks as they fall.
That ache, that longing,
Why do we return to writhe in nostalgia?
Why do we torment and tease ourselves,
When we know that the memories cannot return?
What a strange torment, so very bizarre,
But we do what we do
And must not assume it insane.
Time goes by quickly, but we cannot grasp
It by the collar and shout,
For that would be wrong and unnatural.
But how, how we long to return
To our memories.
win or fail?its true: Ive lost you.
but think about this: if I
was trying to lose
you to begin with,
couldnt you say that I have
Strong Enough?Ive let myself fall over and over again,
Maybe its time for me to get up.
Sometimes Ive wished that I were dead,
But now, maybe I just shouldnt give a fuck.
Im going to keep on living,
Because I know theres someone out there.
Someone out there giving,
Someone out there who cares.
You wanted to turn your back on me,
And without thinking I went on my knees.
How stupid I was
I shouldnt shed anymore tears.
We both were the cause,
But you leaving was just one of my fears.
I believed your lies
Thought that you didnt care
I looked up at the skies
And knew that you were out there somewhere
I should be stronger
But you have part of my heart
I cant take the pain any longer
The torture is just tearing us apart
ChanceI'm moving, trying to reach it
I've never gone faster, my worries ignored
I'm fixed, nothing will stop me
Until it appears, before my eyes
Then and there my existence
Right now, I'm simmering
In a brine of my own thoughts
Pointless reflection and qualm, I'm wasting away
The instance is losing, the moment will be gone
I know how much I want it, still my body grows number
I painfully push forward, my resolve, not fully broken
But with every inch closer, I'm burning inside
I know I must do it, but my heart is collapsing
Step after step, my mind flashes white
It has to be done; I know I'll regret it
No doubt, no worry, no thought,
No anguish, no sadness, no pain
My eyes are focused, it's now or never
Caught between triumph and hesitation
I'll muster my courage, even if it's an illusion
Nothing can stop it, but I'm being eaten alive
I must remain solid, I cannot give up
For if I blink, it may just pass me on by
sadnessI can't feel happy,
There's a barrier in my path.
Its called sadness.
It swallows you in side out,
There's no running from it.
I try to but can't escape.
I'm stuck in a depression hole
Thats slowly caving in.
Though to my surprise,
Its not for my demise,
Though I can't help but feel
As if I'm sinking
Into an oasis of lost hope.
Into nothing but the zenith of oblivion.
I am ugly- I am beautiful
I am worthless- I have worth
I am sick- I will heal
I hate myself- I will learn to love myself
I am weak- I am strong, or I wouldn't be here today
I am moody- I have profound emotional depth
I am lost- I will find myself
I am scared- I have courage
I am crazy- It is normal to struggle
I am in pain- It's okay to hurt
I am tired- I will not give up
I'm not good enough- I am be
Strong...I can't handle it
My head feels too full
My hands shake uncontrollably
My heart pounds in my chest
My legs give up on me
My stomach clenches tight
My breathing is irregular
I can't lose you
You keep me alive at 3am
Stay with me
Just tell me you're going to be okay
And together we shall survive
Because if I lose you
I lose myself
Keep me strong
I can't take it anymore...
BitterWhat once was sweet
Has now turned bitter
A kiss a smile
Is tears is frown.
What once was sweet
Has now turned bitter
A laugh a dream
Is yelling is nightmare.
What once was sweet
Has now turned bitter
A hope a touch
Is fearful is painful.
What once was sweet
Has now turned bitter
A lover a friend
Is hater is dead.
StrongI never knew that I was so strong,
I guess I am just discovering.
A new journey I'm embarking on,
my life again I'm beginning.
A brave smile, a twinkle in my eyes,
My walk full of determination.
A glance here, a glance there,
looking back but not to ponder.
I'll smile at you, like I always do,
let's see if you can look deeper.
I'll let you hold my hand, if that's what you want,
but just so you can walk along, not as my soldier.
I'm strong now, I'm strong today,
finally I can walk this way.
Maybe this is not how I thought things would be,
but I'm not complaining, I'm not trying to flee.
I'm just living my life now... an eternity...
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